Fill Your Hearts with the Petals of Love

Fill your heart with petals of love
And let them overflow
Unconditionally, unreservedly
Into your environment, into your life
Consuming every part of your psyche and well-being
For love is the true conqueror and healer of many ills
The greatest and most potent of these being resentment and pain.

For these will sit on your shoulder
Like Lucifer’s burdening shadow
Absorbing your very spirit and soul

So fill your heart with petals of love
And let them overflow.

Esther Austin All Rights Reserved©December 2006

Leone Well Done - You Too Can Be A Success

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,I am the dream and the hope of the slave.I riseI riseI rise. "Maya Angelou"

Ladies and gents

Leone finally did it.
Just watching her gave me a great feeling of achievement and elation.

She has proved those wrong who said a woman, never mind a black woman would never make it on the X-Factor. But for me watching her perform and getting a sense of her character and her wonderful talent, never mind being a beautiful woman has made me even more determined to continue this journey of mine to do what I feel in my heart I must do.

Events of late in my life, may have forced some to pull back from life, but for me it has spurred me on in a more determined state. Maybe it’s that I need to be kept busy – keeping my mind focussed, not giving me much time to think. But, just seeing Leone win tonight gave me a feeling of tremendous achievement and for me 2007 can only be the year when the icing on the cake is delivered. Peeps, it’s about finding what you are passionate about, it’s about the passion, the hard work, the delivery.

I wish you all the very best in whatever you choose to do with your life. I wish you all will find whatever it is that you want to do and pursue it with the same humbleness and passion that Leone has done.

Remember, there are tools, strategies and courses out there to help you to get to wherever you want to get to. Find them and run with your dream so bad that you begin to live it.

Well done Leone - you will certainly take the world by storm.

“If You Don’t Create Your Reality, Your Reality Will Create You.”
Lizzie West, Singer/Songwriter 1973

"You Must be the Change you Want to See in the World"

"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will."

"You must be the change you want to see in the world."
Mahatma Gandhi

Hi peeps

Another week, and as time moves rapidly on from the events of last week, I have been feeling a deep pain in the pit of my stomach, so much so that I can't even cry and I relieve this just by saying "Oh Father."

Time also seems to be keeping me in a rather surreal place. It seems so wrong at times, to be going on with ones life, laughing at times, enjoying moments yet my sister is now not part of that and for that alone, I do feel a little guilty that I still have the priviledge of being alive. But I must not dwell on what if's and why's but I must focuss on making sure that I live life to the best of my ability enjoying and savouring each moment as if it will be my last. I will endeavour to enjoy the simplicities of life and its experiences, which are lessons in themselves, yet which also encourage the premium of what life is really about - memories.

That much I can do in honour of my sister and her spirit, so at least she knows, that I can still laugh with her, if not in physical presence, but in the spirit sense. She watches me I am sure and would scold me if I were to launch myself into a depressive, miserable state.

So this week sees me moving forward and upward. My aim to achieve and excel has been heightened by my experience over the past year. God has certainly moulded me into a much stronger individual and for that I know I have grown, I know I am much stronger and I know what I must do. On that note peeps have a great week and maybe it's time for reflection before the New Year heads in to see if where you are at with your life, is really where you want to be or is it time for change? There is information in my next post about several avenues you could look at if change is to be part of your programme for 2007.

"I cannot teach you violence, as I do not myself believe in it. I can only teach you not to bow your heads before any one even at the cost of your life."

Mahatma Gandhi

A Wonderful Funeral for a Dynamic Individual

We buried my sister on Monday 4th December 2006. If it must be said it was a wonderful funeral. Responses have been that there was a feeling of warmth and love in the congregation. My sister certainly left a very positive and strong legacy. I will certainly capture and bottle some of her wonderful spirit and will ride the waves with it until I reach the mountain top for which I am aiming for.

The service and the funeral itself, made many of us reflect upon our lives. Tragic though it is that she died so young and in her prime, 39 years of age, she did not go in vain and un-noticed. She left a legacy and made a huge impact on those who knew her. She was not only highly intelligent and gifted, but she was a fighter and her spirit of determination as she battled this illness is to be commended.

Also, what was even more beautiful was the way everyone united, tears mingled with smiles, grieving took place at different levels. There were those whose numbness will remain for a while, others have been left pondering about life and its true meaning and value – it has left us reflecting on many levels.

Our family were supported by so many people, some we knew well others who have travelled with us along our journey through my newsletters. The love and support that was shown was tremendous and a huge thanks goes out to those who attended the funeral as well.

I entered my sister’s room yesterday and was struck by the reality of what her death brough to me. Materialistic gain, designer gear, the latest mod-coms, mean Jack sh… in the bigger scheme of things. When you are gone and what is important are the memories and if you can the legacy you leave behind.

Like I said, life is short and in terms of eternity we are only like a single tear drop in the midst of the ocean. To me this statement defines precisely who and what we are in the scheme of something so much bigger than we are.