Face that Mirror

“If we were more aware of our own shadow
We would never fear to look in the mirror”

Esther Austin


Hmmm – well what can I say everyone. The above quote came to me as I was bustling down the road two weeks ago in the busyness of life, multi-tasking as well as thinking rather strategically. Evidently, the meaning to me was quite clear and once I had put it down on paper, I was a little shocked that such a short quote held such depth.

Thoughtfully, I pondered over the words that had “just” come to me in the throes of my busyness. Certainly, I had to assess and digest them because within those two sentences was a very profound message.

Quite simply, if we focussed on ourselves more, if we were more aware and honest about our own short comings, then we would have nothing to fear.

Confronting who we really are is sometimes very painful. Exposing our short-comings and other things which may be termed as “ugly” about ourselves is a very tentative place to be. Yet what I am realising as I journey along the path to self-actualisation, as I progressively work on myself through meditation, prayer, and just enabling myself to be filled with the positiveness of a source which flows from God, but also which comes from my willingness to explore within myself enabling me to change and to grow is a journey that is filling me with a satisfaction, a peace and contentment and joy which I have never really experienced before. I am finding that being grounded in really knowing “ME” and also enjoying knowing who I really am is something really amazing, because it has also opened up something else inside of me.

I feel very strongly within me, that as I grow made as I allow myself to really tune into God, the universe and allow the goodness of all this to guide me, I am now so much more perceptive and receptive. I find that I now have an understanding of things more clearly, my senses have sharpened, I tend to know things before they happen, I can pick up on the energies and sometimes thoughts of people around me. Often times, I just “know” things about other people without even knowing them.

I have journeyed for quite some time now, and especially over the past month, I know I have changed once again. I am a much stronger person, but not in an aggressive or egotistical manner. I have no need to let ego into my existence, because once a person is aware of who they truly are, then ego has not place in that format and top quietly “know” and “be” is strength in itself. Yet, I also know that this continuous growth, and for me, constantly pushing through boundaries to explore myself and to understand the world around me and to further gain an insight into life, people and generally the psychology of how we as individuals work, is a very interesting yet satisfying pilgrimage.

So, for this week I would like to plug again the book or DVD called “The Secret.” It gives an insight into how each and every one of us can have what we want in life. There is such an abundance of opportunities out there for us all, yet many times we cannot tap into this richness because of the focus of our thoughts and energies. It clearly shows us that everything that has happened in our lives has been attracted by us and our thoughts.

There is a saying “If you do the same thing all of the time, you will get the same results” – so if you are experiencing something in your life time and time again – then it’s time for a reality check.

In a nutshell, we must all strive to go through life with a spirit of unconditional love, with respect for the self because only then can we give back and respect others and taking this into consideration, this relates right back to The Law of Attraction. http://www.mindbodyspiritdirect.co.uk

Daily Buddhist Wisdom

He who for himself or others craves not for sons or power or wealth, who puts not his own success before the success of righteousness, he is virtuous, and righteous and wise.

No Man is an Island - My Mourning Has Begun

The path to self-actualisation is indeed an interesting, sometimes challenging and certainly a very reflective one. I have been on this delightful path of further self-discovery and development even more so recently. I have ploughed myself into personal development workshops, meditation. The desire to read and fill myself with the vibes of inspiration, knowledge and self-awareness has been incredibly strong. I have purchased some wonderfully enlightening CD’s and DVD’s which are all helping to feed and nourish me for the betterment of myself and in the process enabling me to empower and give back to others on a unique level. As I grow, I am feeling very different within myself. I have become more spiritually in-tune with who I am and God’s purpose for my life.

Yet, sometimes, when I think I have reached a place where I can “handle” things, that I am in a stronger place emotionally, physically and spiritually, of late, I have found myself whelming up in tears, an indicator that I have not yet fully healed. I refer to the loss of my sister, back in November 2006 to breast cancer. Up until 4 weeks ago, I was handling things quite well, so I thought, until the restless nights crept stealthily in and the memories began to flood into my consciousness again. Had I been in denial all this time and not addressed these emotions, which have been hitting me in an extraordinary powerful and painful way and of which, I have to admit to, I am struggling with?

I have always been perceived as being strong, someone who just gets on and does what I must. Maybe, this is also the perception I have given in times past, a strong independent sister, doing things for herself, when in reality, often times, I have been crying out on the inside for someplace to lean into, other than God’s hands. Some physical place, some warm and comforting human space to gather strength and love from. To be honest, at this moment in time, I am in a very lonely place, but I also feel I need and want to be here, so that I can deal with these very strong emotions of bereavement. Or maybe once again, I am in denial because that place isn’t yet there for me in the physical form?

Over the past 4 weeks, I have found it incredibly difficult to sleep, with many memories from last year, flooding my mind. Many of these memories, I have not shared with anyone, as some of them were very distressing, so maybe I am now in a place where I am working through all my emotions, ridding and detoxing myself from the past, allowing and opening up myself to the process which grieving dictates.

Often times, my pain is so knotted within the pit of my stomach that I can only release a quiet and tearful “Oh Father”, yet through this pain I realise that healing is taking place. Time – no greater healer than time can accompany me on this journey and as I go through this process, I know I will once again emerge at the other end a hopefully wiser, stronger and a changed individual.

My pain can be shared with many who have lost loved ones over the past year or so. Many have said that their pain is still great after 5 years and I would hope that in some way mine can be sated soon. And so, I find that I drive myself to work harder, hardly giving myself the time to focus, to think, to remember because the reality is that I miss my sister dearly. She was and is my best friend, my soul-mate and her presence has left a terribly empty void.

Indeed, I am in a very interesting place. On the one hand, I am growing spiritually, my intuition being honed in a wonderful way, where I can sense things and where often times I just “know” – yet on the other side, my spirit and soul weep. Yet I also realise, that as I feel her spirit leave me, as she had been very close by up until 4 weeks ago, she is providing space for someone new to enter my life. Someone who I will build that bond of friendship and love with and someone who will provide me with that sacred friendship and love on an intimate and personal level. So now I must learn to let her go.

So to conclude, I would say I am in a rather unique place. A place of learning, experiencing and growing and a place of mourning. A place where I can combine both sides of my emotional frontiers and still give thanks to the awareness of the journey I am on and what I am experiencing, because then I can feed this experience back into my life’s work, helping to empower and maybe inspired others.

What you Sow, So Shall Ye Reap

Dear All

As part of who I am and my journey in the Personal Development field and also in my quest for knowledge and to know how we as human beings operate, I thought the below summed up how many people operate. Operating as much as we can from the font of truth, can only help us to understand ourselves and others and how we can influence those around us.

I have just finished watching a very very powerful DVD, called The Secret. It talks predominantly about the Laws of Attraction and how our thoughts and emotions influence our lives. So whether we think positive or negative thoughts, these are what will manifest themselves in our lives. As Buddha says "we are what we think."

Have you ever noticed or watched someone who used to have low self-esteem, lack of respect for the self, lack of awareness about themselves, how their lives seemed to reflect that? From the job they had to the type of people in their lives? Yet, watch this same person transform as they go on a journey of personal development, as they find themselves and begin to understand themselves and empower themselves. Do you notice how everything around them changes with that new form of empowerment and confidence? This has certainly been part of my journey, many years ago when I was married. I had attracted into my life something that was not at all healthy, yet all the same, I had directed somehow, myself into that situation.

I firmly believe that what we think manifests itself so much in our lives, therefore we must be careful what we think, say and believe. It is not easy to monitor our every thought, but for the most part, we must be aware of the dangers and challenges to our lives that persistent and negative thoughts will have.

So I leave the below with you and I would like to suggest that you purchase or get a copy of "The Secret". Have a girly or lads night in, with a tub of popcorn and get inspired and empowered and become aware. Many people are living life like ostrichs, heads buried in the sand, with eyes open. It's time to release yourselves from this place and begin to enjoy the great abundance that life has waiting for you. You just have to be truthful and honest about who you are and what you are about.

Wishing you all the best always:


Understanding the dynamics of Karma or
“What you sow so shall yea reap”
If you consider yourself a person of honesty and integrity
Yet you lower yourself
To hurt those who have offended or hurt you
Then you too shall sow what you reap
And you are far removed from the table of truth

Yet someone who is self-aware
Whose spirit continually seeks and speaks after truth
Knows and understands within their hearts
That being grounded in honesty and integrity
One only needs to stand in the shadows, silent
watching as life delivers to those
their just deserves.



Esther Austin