We Attract unto us What we are - The Men and Women in my Life

As mentioned in my previous posting, I am at a place of change again. Always conscious of the shifts that take place within me.

Over the past two weeks, challenging as they may have been, what has helped to strike a balance are the following which have taken the edge off these challenges.

I met a friend last week who has recently come back from Zimbabwe as he had a gift for me. I have a wonderful yet close body of friends who love the outdoors and who love to walk and converse on a conscious and spiritual level. We reflect and evaluate life from all perspectives and the deep level of conversations that we have are always enlightening and informing. So it was nice to walk and talk and hear of his experiences in Zimbabwe and the friendships he formed and the opportunities that have come his way. Yet if you met the gentleman, you can see why he attracts good things his way. He has a strong sense of self, he gives unconditionally and his focus is not on reaping material gain, but on reaching out and helping others and in the helping and caring for he receives back and for each person in my life the same is true. For those who are not yet there, only time will tell and some I know will fall to the wayside. In the bible it states about everything being for a reason and a season.

I had some shopping to do and it was such a pleasant feeling when he paid for my groceries and carried my bags home. A few days later, I went to see a friend of mine who owns a shop in Catford where I purchased some CD’s and he gave me some free. Men hold doors open for me and greet me with a wonderful level of respect. I receive hugs and compliments constantly when we greet each other, and I am content in the knowing that because the “genuine intent” of those around me is about honesty and integrity and respect – that level of communication can never be mis-construed as anything else. Yet what I realise is that, when one has respect for oneself – one can only receive the same from others and also when individuals are grounded in who they are and in their self-worth. So on this level, I have to expect this level of wonderful treatment from the person who will share my life, eventually.

As I am allowing myself to open up more to the abundance that lies in store for me, I am drawing some wonderfully dynamic people into my arena. My female friends are wonderfully spiritual, supportive and caring individuals and as a collective, myself included, look out for each other with an unconditional love and respect that forms bonds and eternal friendships. My relationships with my male friends too have an incredible respectful unity, and are very supportive. Yet the key here is also that this is not a one-way street, because reciprocally, we all look out for each other. The beauty is that like attracts like and in that process, even though many of us are building businesses and are going to be incredibly successful, we still take time out for each other, in our busyness, because no man is an island. What is even more important is that for those who do not take time out to nurture relationships along the way, as they build, often times when the building is complete, they find that people have shifted and changed and as the saying goes “You never know what you’ve got until it’s gone.”

We attract unto us what and who we are and in that summary, as I continue to grow and evolve, as I continue to understand more of who I really am and put God first in everything I do and say, then I know he will always put the right people in my life at the right time. These individuals, at the time, may not always serve, to us what is a positive experience, but believe me they are there for a reason and like I’ve said before, there are no good or bad experiences, per se, just experiences – the importance is in the learning and what you do with the messages you receive.
Also remember that whatever you focus on, you will receive. So if you focus something positive or negative, that is what you will draw unto you.

I have had to learn to shift some of my thinking, because I have been drawing lack until myself in a few areas of my life. But now that I am equipped with the knowledge and understanding of how “what we ask for we get” works, I know that God has some dynamic things lying in store for my life.

On that note I would like to leave with you a quote which sums up everything:

“If we were more aware of our own shadow, we would not be afraid to look in the mirror” Esther Austin

I'm Taking Time out to get to Know Me Again

Recently, I have been going through some more changes and shifts within myself.
As always life is an ever evolving series of challenges and experiences. An ever revolving door of many experiences and dynamics which whether we classify them as “good” or “bad” experiences, represent experiences as a whole. Therefore, if being of a higher consciousness and having an innate awareness of ones self, what is key about such experiences is the learning from them and the messages that come from that learning.

I am very tired at the moment, mentally and emotionally. I have been burning the midnight oil at both ends and to a certain degree this is to be expected as I build my empire. Yet, I have also made great in-roads in learning to take time out for me, to have some quiet time. I try to pray and meditate for at least 20 minutes in the morning, every day –I find this sustains and grounds me for my day ahead.

Yet since coming back from Peru, my body has felt a little heavy and tired and I have felt particularly challenged over the past two weeks especially. As always, when I sense a shift within myself or the need to dig deeper within to see what is really going on inside of Esther, I get down on my knees and pray then I meditate. In the stillness of being, this is when answers come to me and time and time again the message to “Be still and know that I am God” and “Stand firm in who you are, Esther” is given to me. These messages after careful thought and reflection often tell me that I need to really take time out, not just a mere 20 minutes here and there but at least half an hour of just being still, not even to meditate nor pray. This quiet time is so that I can re-charge and allow myself to channel into the depth of me, where my thoughts can roam free and I can just “be” in that space for that particular period of time.

I realise I have made some profound achievements this year – yet I have lost a little of myself in the process i.e confidence and self-belief. At present, I am operating at around 65% of my real capacity.

I went for Reiki treatment today as someone kindly offered to give me some healing treatment, because she sensed I needed to be pampered. My back has been aching for a while and this has proven to be a manifestation of worry about something in my life at present. What came out of the consultation session was amazing. Everything that had manifested itself to me in my meditations over the past two weeks was revealed at this session and the most shocking thing to me, even though subconsciously I knew, was that I needed to work on building confidence, trust and love in and with myself. I needed to take a step away from the daily rigor of life and address “Who is Esther?” “What does Esther want from life?” “How can Esther really learn to love herself 100% again?” and “Do the people, situations and circumstances in my life serve me?” I had to answer “No” a few times, realising that if I want the best out of life, if I want what is best for my children and I then I have to let go and let God and understand that whoever or whatever God has got planned for my life, will be the best thing for me.

Somewhere in between the hurrying and scurrying and building and looking after and caring and nurturing of business, children and others, I had lost a part of me and now feeling drained and weary my body was saying to me, time out.

I will be going away for a brief period shortly and I will not be taking my laptop or work with me. I will be taking a few books and lots of music and I will begin to journal my feelings and the new experiences I know will happen to me as I find “me” time and as I learn to value and truly appreciate Esther for who she really is. I will be doing a lot of reflecting and sometimes even just sitting and just “being” me in that moment. I will also be going out and enjoying myself, tapping into the more adventurous side of me and allowing myself to be taken out and treated like the Goddess that I truly am.

I am not even waiting until I reach where I am going to start this new journey, but am starting this adventure now and you now what, it feels great and liberating already. I want to experience life with all its abundance and fullness. I now know more clearly than ever what and who I want in my life and only the best will do. I now feel a sense of relief that being open to the truth about who I am and having an awareness of what I need to work on, is helping me on my incredible journey through life.

Like Whitney Houston Sang “Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all” – and I’d better believe it.

The Greatest Gifts are within us - and they are free

What is the true value of life if we do not have some simple and basic elements which make life complete. The joy of love, appreciation and gratitude is something which many fail to understand and utilize in their lives.

These are basic and simple gifts which we all have access to 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. These are wonderful gifts "which have no material value, yet their worth is more than silver and gold and their impact in and on our lives and those around us is more than can ever be counted.

These are the gifts which make us truly rich, because whether we are rich or poor in monetary and materialistic gains the ultimate test of the value we put on our lives is can we still access, understand and enjoy the above gifts only when we have it all, or can we still be in a place of contentment when the chips are down as well.

There are many more beautiful gifts available to each and everyone of us. It has been said that when things are free we fail to see the significance and importance in their value. For many of the beautiful things that we have access to freely, gifts which are within us, carved not by sweat, toil and tears but from the womb of unconditional and the purity or love, many of us do not recognize nor appreciate.

Everything we need to enjoy the basics of life is at our fingertips. Everything, that is, that will allow our souls to find contentment, peace, joy and love. If we do not have these elements within ourselves first, how then can we expect to find this in another person and our lives as a whole. Yet with everything in life, it is about acknowledging and recognizing what is before us and how we use these resources and more profoundly, it is about the recognition of the self. Once we get to know who we really are, then we can access all that is ready for us, embrace these gifts then share them as they were intended to be used.

I have just started to read "I Can Make You Rich" by Paul McKenna and I would like to leave you with a few quotes from that book which to me really put things into perspective:

"All wealth is created in the mind."

"The difference between the rich and the poor is that the rich have learned to recognize the value of their thoughts."

"because, as you will soon realise, being rich isn't just about you - it's about how you impact the world around you and the legacy you leave behind"


There is also a wonderful quote by Steve Forbes, billionaire publisher who says:

"The real source of wealth and capital in this new era is not material tings. It is the human mind, the human spirit, the human imagination and our faith in the future."

So take some time today to think about what is really important not only to you, but to those around you and how you personally make an impact on the world. With the above gifts at your fingertips - you can only but go from strength to strength and be a dynamic and positive force in someone's life.

The Art and Importance of Communication

Communication is one of those profound aspects of life which enables life to flow and exist on a plane which makes the world go around and life happen. Communication is an art in itself and one that often astounds us with its many intricate, complex and complicated ways of expression. It is certainly an expressive conduit, having a life force of its own in many dimensions and through many mediums.

Communication is not just what we say and how we say it. It is something which is universal in its own right and which spans language verbal and non-verbal. It is about building rapport, linking, making contact, integrating, blending and merging, reaching out, building bridges and crossing divides. What is always so amazing are the numerous ways in which communication takes place and still makes itself understood. Sometimes off the wall ways of communication still enable the process of rapport building to take place. Communication is what holds the basic threads of life together at a very cellular level, a continual intertwining and connecting of the unseen and seen, the verbal and non-verbal. It gives understanding to our existence through a means..

Body language a communication vehicle all of its own, sending out messages sometimes sub-consciously, without our conscious effort even realising that we have delivered messages of which we are not aware of. Perception then comes into play. How others perceive us, our behaviour, our actions certainly reflect back to us who we think we are. Yet going further still into the human psyche, exploring the depth of the soul itself, communication sets another trend. That of the soul and spirit which communicates and resonates on a level which many people, unless vibrating on a certain frequency, may never fully understand the subliminal messages that our spirit sends out. Reading energies another communicative gift. The beauty often on this realm is that of simply “knowing” a feeling communicated through the coming together and understanding of oneself and this form of communication can only be experienced through the surrealism of being in a higher place, not superior, just resonating on an ethereal or spiritual level.

We all operate at different levels. This in part, has to do with our journey and the path we are on. Pathways are put in place, not only to guide us, but also for our growth and ultimately our learning. There are many paths in life, each leading to an end result which therefore determines our destination. Then there are the experiences which mould us into the beings we are at this present moment in time. We are guided by various forces onto the paths we now find ourselves on, communicated to us by decisions we make, external and internal influences and many other dynamics of life’s persuasions.

Whatever we are about and wherever we are at this moment in time, was at some point in time communicated to us. We may not be aware of this as often times, in the basic living of daily life we become caught up in the dimensions of purely existence, whilst life whittles away, decisions are often made for us without us being aware. Once again communicated to us subliminally without our awareness.

Communication is a powerful tool, a tool that conquerors and divides, dependant upon which game you play and how you play it. Yet what is fundamentally key in terms of the importance of communication is that in this expressive cooking pot, which blends lives, experiences and the existence of humanity into a cohesive coalition of the bringing together of and uniting of - communication as with the power of love certainly makes the world go around, reaching deeper than the ocean and reaching up to touch celestial beings and even if it be said “other life forms.”

They say love makes the world go around. Well what could be said of communication is that “it expressively and subtly gives a platform to and holds the threads of the global voice of life together.”