BE AUTHENTIC WITH YOU - YOU HAVE NOTHING TO LOOSE BUT ALL TO GAIN

Dear All

I have just uploaded a new audio recording on the Time to Share section on Qarma Broadcast http://www.qarmabroadcast.co.uk/6.html. This is something that has been on my spirit for the past two weeks and which came very strongly came to me again today.

The item is for all of us, and more importantly those who stand on a platform of leadership, and teaching etc. The simple message here is that when we operate from a place of inauthenticity, when we choose to ignore our own pain, our emptyness, our fears, then how can we empower and reach out to those we think we love, if we do not have those qualities inside of us? Yet it is ok to be in a place of fear for a while, because this pain tells us that there is something we need to deal with.

How can we truly reach out with and in the abundance of who we truly are and touch people's lives 100%, not just 50% but 100% if our own hearts are empty, in pain and full of fear. Surely we need to realise that we deserve to be loved and to love unconditionally and that we can have it all, yet we just need to trust and walk in our own truth. Would we not then be able to live life more abundantly? I have travelled this path of fear for a while myself and it was uncomfortable to say the least and I had to choose to step out of this space into a better space because the pain did become too much too bear.

So many of us as leaders, stand on a platform where we are idolised, where love from our fans can become mixed up with desire, awe - all coming from the place of the ego. Believe me on this - desire is fickle - a trickle of flights of fantasy lasting for only a brief moment in time, empty, void of any real depth, detached from reality and truth. Yet love - love is unity, togetherness, understanding, respect, nurturing, honesty, authenticity. Love is truth. Spirituality is about love, honesty and authenticity, period - and if it is something else to you - then I would like to suggest that take a step back and check the road you have just trod. I have had to do this many time myself - reflecting, analysing who I was at any given moment in time, especially when pain became my indicator that I was not operating as I should.

I have trod my path of pain believe me. When I lost my younger sister to breast cancer two years ago, and then found out my partner had had an affair with two women, my pain was so bad I could not cry and then I shut down for two years - but in my heart there was always hope that oneday I would find love again and I deserved to be loved and I wanted to love, because I have so much to give. Yet I realise I had to experience everything in my life because there were lessons for me to learn. these lessons have served me well, because of where I now stand.

To this day I still believe in the sanctity of true and passionate love and I know I will find that which I have asked for because I have worked on me, I chose to face that mirror of truth and deal with ME, my pain, my blocks, my resentment, my inpure thoughts. It's not easy to do this self analysis and correction, but you know what - if I plan to stand up in front of thousands of people empowering, inspiring and teaching, then I had better walk my talk and people who know me, know that I will always hold my hand up if I am wrong, if I need to deal with ME, but more importantly, I do know longer need others to validate who I am and to stroke my ego by being dishonest about who I am. I can now stand on my own and claim that I AM THAT I AM. I have learned to love me once again and to allow myself to embrace all the wonderful possibilities in life that God has given to me, within the universal flow of love, light and abundance.

I just felt I needed to share this with my global community, and I hope we can support and encourage each other on this journey called life and to know that there is always another day in which we can change the direction of our life and that FEAR has no place in our lives.

Remember I love you all, because I now can, because after 43 years - I have finally learned to truly love me - can you not now see the sun shining from within my soul - I can - finally.

Much love to you all and keep on supporting Qarma Broadcast, http://www.qarmabroadcast.co.uk - your online inspirational and spiritual radio station.

Know thyself and you Can know Everything

Beyond this expanse of eternity
I stand alone
Solitude my companion
Lonely, never for I am complete as I am

Beyond this expanse of eternity
I watch my thoughts
Cascade down through my mind
Interpretation no longer needs
To lend itself to me

For my spirit, this ancient soul of souls
Has searched for wisdom
From the time life breathed fire
Into this world
Experience has carved me into being
My existence defined by the paths I have trod
from the roads I have walked
from the sacrifices made and the many lessons learned
In many lives and places have I lived
Spanning the sands of time and oceans of eternity
And now I stand on the pinnacle of enlightenment
The sense of “knowing” sits firm within my being
Because I have journeyed this land
Even before time existed

Oh, yes, I know, oh how, I know
Many, many things
I have seen much and captured much within my heart
I have heard much and captured much within my heart
I have felt much and captured much within my heart
I have experienced joy like the creation within womb of a child
I have experienced pain, like the thorns which pierced Jesus’ brow
Or the shackles of mind, body and soul which kept many a people down
So therefore, how could I not attain enlightenment
Without experiencing the world through the eyes of my soul
Until this sense of knowing, became embedded within my psyche

Beyond this expanse of eternity
I stand alone
Solitude my companion
Reflecting through life, with me
Gathering knowledge and wisdom
Embedding it within my heart

So yes, I know,
I just simply know everything
Or Do I?

Esther Austin© All Rights Reserved 15 May 2009

Visions of Expression

Visions of expression sit within the mind
now let them wait patiently
in the corner of tomorrow
until your peace suspends you
surrenders you
into the timelessness of space
as your thoughts drift out into
the horizon


Esther Austin

Celebrating the True Energy of Time

Time, an elusive enigma. Always in control of even the very breath that escapes from our soul.

Time a constant in our lives, emerging as the flow and continuum of our existence. We have all become dependent upon this miraculous power, aligning our lives against its directing. The watch on wrists, a constant reminder through furtive and regular glances that we have allowed ourselves to become accountable to the tenuous grasp and control that this elusive element reigns over us.

Clocks perch precariously in positions or where we have no choice but to adhere to their domineering presence – rule our day. Like production lines we regulate our lives around them. Invisible infrastructures, constantly framing our days within the dimensions of the tick, tock, tick, tock. We condemn our lives often by the rule of the clock, our mis-perceived idea of what we think time really is, which is not the rule of time because time offers us a freeness of spirit and presence which we do not often recognise. Time is a liberator. Paradoxically, it is free in the space of a limitless forever. Yet we have chained this freedom time offers, wrapping it up amongst rush, hurry, deadlines, urgency. Clocks and watches, mobile phones dictate to us, never allowing us to enjoy this very moment.

Everywhere we go, like rats in a cage, we are confronted by the glaring reality that traps us into conformity. Believing we need to march against the constant strike of the year, month, week, day, hour, second. Believing we need to march against the constant and unrepentant movement of time.

Yet if we chose to we could ignore the dilemmas and impositions we allow our mental restriction on time to do to us. We could choose to liberate our minds, our spirits and souls. We could choose to allow the gentler hands of time to guide us subtly, joyously, contentedly through life, enabling us to enjoy and appreciate the scenery of life along the way. Allowing us to never miss even the smallest of moments which makes life worth existing for. Those moments which are often lost as we race against the hands of the clock. We could allow the caress of experience to add to our awareness and finally enlightenment as we become more aware of the beauty that surrounds us which would then help us to experience our spiritual journey even more.

Therefore, as with anything in life, it is about choice. We can allow the rigid hands of technology, a prodigy of time itself to rule our world or we can experience the beauty and wonder and sense of freedom within our souls, to ride upon the crest of time itself, which is eternal.

Are you ready to enjoy more of the essence of life? Take a day off from your watch, the clock, the demands of your mobile. Try and take time off from the daily rigmarole and experience the freedom that you will allow time to offer you. And in this process, experience a whole new and wonderful world of being in the present, in the moment.