Hi peeps
Another week, and as time moves rapidly on from the events of last week, I have been feeling a deep pain in the pit of my stomach, so much so that I can't even cry and I relieve this just by saying "Oh Father."
Time also seems to be keeping me in a rather surreal place. It seems so wrong at times, to be going on with ones life, laughing at times, enjoying moments yet my sister is now not part of that and for that alone, I do feel a little guilty that I still have the priviledge of being alive. But I must not dwell on what if's and why's but I must focuss on making sure that I live life to the best of my ability enjoying and savouring each moment as if it will be my last. I will endeavour to enjoy the simplicities of life and its experiences, which are lessons in themselves, yet which also encourage the premium of what life is really about - memories.
That much I can do in honour of my sister and her spirit, so at least she knows, that I can still laugh with her, if not in physical presence, but in the spirit sense. She watches me I am sure and would scold me if I were to launch myself into a depressive, miserable state.
So this week sees me moving forward and upward. My aim to achieve and excel has been heightened by my experience over the past year. God has certainly moulded me into a much stronger individual and for that I know I have grown, I know I am much stronger and I know what I must do. On that note peeps have a great week and maybe it's time for reflection before the New Year heads in to see if where you are at with your life, is really where you want to be or is it time for change? There is information in my next post about several avenues you could look at if change is to be part of your programme for 2007.
Mahatma Gandhi
No comments:
Post a Comment