Have I Arrived?

Over the past few weeks, I have realised a magnificent yet tremendous change within myself. It is as if I am on a different plane, as if I am on this interesting and surreal journey of personal development, so intense that it feels as if scales have been lifted off my eyes and I am viewing the world on a different plane.

I feel I can see the world through sharper focus. All of a sudden, I am able to take in things around me which before, I had been oblivious to. All of a sudden my senses are heightened.

I can also feel this tremendous rush of energy seated within the bowls of my stomach and the gurgling and bubbling up of something so strong and intense, that at times I feel to explode.

Yet, I do not question all these changes and feelings that I am experiencing because I now know. I now know myself more in-depth. I am more aware of who I am at my very core. I have been working on and through myself once again. Exploring, digging deep, trying to understand what I am about, looking at my beliefs and whether they need to be re-arranged, if anything warped exists within. Looking at how I perceive myself, those around me, my environment and generally assessing my life.

I am now in a very beautiful place. A place where I just know. A place where I am comfortable being me and this has manifested itself in the opportunities and various things that are constantly coming my way. I feel as if I have arrived, reaching the pinnacle of self-actualisation – as per Abraham Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. Yet, does one every truly ever arrive? Does one ever truly reach their full potential when life always has so much more to offer and for one to strive towards?

Yet at this moment in time, I am excelling and my heart is truly elated. All those late nights and sacrifices are yielding in abundance. Yes, there will be arrows shot at me along the way, there will be obstacles, gossip, etc, etc but the way I feel now, is because I am so secure within myself, these things are minor and will bounce off my back. I am not saying I will never feel the pain and brunt of a jealous man’s arrow and at times I too may reel with the pain of such an infliction, yet I feel I am strong enough now, stronger now to face what must be.

I am also living each day as if it is my last. Doing what I must and trying to enjoy the journey along with way and it’s great. I am meeting some wonderful people and experiencing many new and positive things. My favourite verse by Dr Maya Angelou says:

I am the dream and the hope of the slave
I am the gift that my ancestors gave
I rise, I rise, I rise