Hope

Deeply seated within me
I ache…..
a terribly profound yet wholesome ache…
(Can one experience such a paradox of differing feelings within the very same breath?)

It is an ache which resonates and reaches far
beyond my heart and soul
An ache, though wholesome, empowering and powerful
Still over bears itself within, throughout and around me

It dares to seep right into the very essence of my spiritual being
For it has a purpose, you see
It needs to make itself known
This pain needs for me to feel it
for me to experience how it makes my heart
Twist and turn in discomfort’s grasp
This ache needs me to know that it is real
as surely as the glow of orange sun rises at dawn
I must be made aware of it’s existence

Yet in betweix and between
a calmness of knowing resides
Of how love’s deep, simple yet intricate and infinite meanderings
Can capture someone’s heart and soul, within its honeypot
holding us to ransom, through the ache the lurks and roams wild and free
From the longing that comes from missing that special someone

Therefore, I feel, at present, lost
Hazily detached from the world
Because I am missing that special someone
so utterly and terribly so
That I am, at present, existing on automated thoughts
And robotic actions
And holding onto the hands of love’s promises
So tight
that I feel if I exhaled
and unravelled the knots which sit tight within my stomach
I would fail to function

But love and hope
Are buried deep within me
And I know he will come to me soon
He has promised he will come to me soon
It is written in the stars
Which smile down at me
Amidst the darkness of the night
He will come to me, soon
To stand by my side
To share in my lie, forever

Esther Austin All Rights ©Reserved 4th July 2006